What's Stopping Me?

Models…..Actors…..A friends boyfriend/girlfriend…..all perfect examples of people who create some sort of lust to others. As we all know, what you can’t have is what you most desire. Lust by definition is having a strong sexual desire for someone……and it blinds us from knowing how someone really is, since we are so attracted to them, and that their imperfections basically disappear from our radar…….But when they do something bad…..one of these two things occur. One….. Their illusion shatters and you really see their true self, which is usually a horrible person with just a pretty face….or Two……you ignore it and just succumb to their lust, until its to late to turn back. Back in high school i had this major crush on one of my friends boyfriend and she knew i had a crush on her boyfriend, so she introduced me and i tried my best to look nonchalant….but it was so obvious i was so nervous cause i wanted him badly……After they broke up…..me and her ex were still friends cause i still wanted to talk to him since he was hot……i would save him an extra cookie or whatever i made just so that he would talk to me……i even brought him a cake on his birthday……that earned me a hug and i thought it was the most amazing hug ever at the time…….i thought he liked me as a friend…..which was as close as i was getting cause he was straight, but it was fine with me…….But i soon found out he didn’t believe we were friends…….he knew i was gay, he knew i had a major crush on him, and he just talked to me to get free baked goods…..i was so hurt, that i ran to the bathroom to cry….. and realized it was too late to do anything about it, he had used me and gave me false hope….After that incident i stopped trying to talk to him and to this day i hardly ever lust over someone…i might think someone’s cute….but i’ll never try to make someone like me because i think there hot……

…..because that’s pathetic…..